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01 February 2012 @ 06:44 pm
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24 April 2010 @ 11:49 pm
This is purely smut, of course, but still, my first offering in a year and a half. So I'm kind of rusty, but I just needed to write today. So bear with me, okay?

Title: Game, Set, Match
Pairing: Draco/Hermione
Rating: NC-17
Category: PWP, one-shot
Summary: It started out as dinner, but it was really a win-win situation in the end, right?
Word count: ~1,500
Notes: No redeeming social values or plot, whatsoever. Just delicious, tasty smutty Dramione goodness. I enjoy feedback, though!


In retrospect, I'm glad we stayed in for dessert.Collapse )


Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: wynter - dirty talk
15 April 2010 @ 10:45 am
 Hey everyone,

Sorry for posting inconsistencies. I'm in the middle of writing my final exams right now, which is pretty hectic. Then I get a two week reprieve, before I start consolidation, which is a month long clinical experience in the hospital. I didn't get OR, which was my original choice (but then 32 people applied for it and my name wasn't lucky enough to get picked out of the hat, there were only 8 spots available.)

So anyways, I'm doing OB (obstetrical nursing, which is pregnant moms and babies. I'm excited because I get to rotate through the prenatal clinic, the maternal triage clinic, labour, delivery and postpartum, and the neonatal intensive care unit. D'aww, babies.

So tomorrow, April 16, is GLSEN'sDay of Silence, and I'm encouraging everyone to participate because this is a cause close to me--my little brother is gay, and I'm going to do everything I can to help eradicate the hate that my brother faces on a daily basis.

Basically, what I'm doing is I will be carrying a card with the following on it:

"Please understand my reasons for not speaking today. I am participating in the
Day of Silence, a national youth movement protesting the silence faced by lesbian,
gay, bisexual and transgender people and their allies in schools. My deliberate
silence echoes that silence, which is caused by harassment, prejudice, and
discrimination. I believe that ending the silence is the first step toward fighting
these injustices.”

It doesn't matter what sexual orientation you are--all that matters is that you want to stop the hate and discrimination.

Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: train - hey, soul sister
21 March 2010 @ 01:19 pm
 I went out last night to my friend Steph's birthday thing which was at a local bar, because she turned 20, and I hadn't seen her in a while. We went to high school together, and we even go to the same university, but we're in different programs. I was looking for another mutual friend of ours we went to high school with, and I asked Steph where she was. 

Me: So where's [friend?] You invited her, right?
Steph: Yeah, but she couldn't make it...working I guess?
Me: Oh...I haven't seen her in a while.
Steph: Did you hear the news? She told me a few weeks ago when I talked to her on the phone.
Me: What?
Steph: She's pregnant!
Steph: Yeah, seriously! It's so exciting!
Me: Aww, how far along?
Steph: Two months, I think.
Me: *floored by this still*

You should understand that this is the same friend who got married last July. She's 19. And she's married. And she's having a BABY. A LITTLE HUMAN BEING. I am so very excited for her, because her and her husband are adorable and they're going to have such a cute little family, but I'm thinking, huh, I feel so old/young at the same time.

I'm in school and can barely carry a relationship to save my life and yet...my friend is already married and having a baby. Like, holy crap. 
I know marriage and babies are for different people and different ages, but still, I can't help feeling wistful. I don't want a baby right now, or a husband, but I want her kind of happiness. If that makes sense. 

Damn you, hormones. 
Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Current Music: american saturday night - brad paisley
16 March 2010 @ 09:01 pm
mom: "aww, it's cute how joel madden is engaged to nicole richie"
dad: *wakes up* what? what? those brothers from good charlotte are engaged to each other?
mom: "no, dear, that's incest. well, actually twincest."

LOL mom.
Current Mood: sillysilly
Current Music: josh turner - why don't we just dance
15 March 2010 @ 10:35 pm
So, I'm down 38 pounds in the 7 weeks since I had the surgery. :)

I feel a lot better, and it's neat because I can feel some of my bones now--not in a gross way, but like a "whoa, holy shit, I can see my collarbone!" type of way.

Also, I can feel my knees pressing together, and my shoulder blades, and I can wear some of the pants in my closet again that I couldn't wear 38 pounds ago. Which is nice, because I was getting worried when I was down to my last two pair of wearable jeans and then the dreaded sweatpants. I never wanted to be "the fat girl who wears sweat pants." Which sounds terrible. But it's true. I rarely wear sweats/yoga pants unless my friend drags my lazy ass to the gym because I have this fear that sweats will allow me to be lazy and gain the weight back. 

The weather is getting better so maybe once my midterms are done I will attempt rollerblading, which I'm terrible at but it's a lot more fun then running. I had to go and make friends with tall, skinny guys who can run 5 miles without breaking a sweat. And then they wonder why i'm way back at the swingset, swinging up and down.

Anyways, the last couple days I've been feeling really blah. Don't know why. School mostly. How is everyone, anyways? I feel like I'm neglecting you all.

Oh also, I'm on  Tumblr now, and like always, on Twitter.

Current Music: lady gaga - summerboy
14 March 2010 @ 09:47 pm
 Hey everyone,

This is a quick blurb between exams--two midterms tomorrow and I'm freaking the FUCK out--but now you can follow me on Tumblr and I'll follow you. :D

hop on the bandwagon--yay peer pressure

Love, me!
Current Mood: crazycrazy
Current Music: the good life - three days grace
28 February 2010 @ 06:48 pm


Also, because Crosby is delicious:

UNF. Marry me please? We'd have super hot hockey playing babies together.

Love, Victoria
Current Music: dark blue - jack's mannequin
24 February 2010 @ 04:40 pm
I decided to post a little update after reading strawberrimelon 's entry on the suicide of a girl she went to school with. Unfortunately the reason I haven't been around lately is for a similar reason--no deaths, thank goodness, but an emergency with a friend.

Here's how I replied:

First, it is really tragic when someone chooses to take their own life because their friends and family are left with the repercussions of that choice.

I am diagnosed as clinically depressed. I have been so for five years now, since I was this girl's age. It is regulated with medication and counselling. Admitting you're depressed is the hardest thing a depressed person could ever do. And it's literally a disease that takes over your mind--you can't think coherently, you can't make sound decisions, or good choices. You're just so alone and in so much pain that you can't function, and you'll do whatever it takes to feel better immediately. Depression is a selfish disease. It's hard to think about others, never mind reach out. Even if all the support is there in the world (and I commend your school on having that kind of support because many schools do not--it is truly great) someone who is depressed just can't see it.

I spent last week in the emergency room with my friend because she wanted to kill herself. She would have not got the help she needed if someone hadn't noticed the signs. Depression is unique in that you can't understand unless you've suffered through it--it's an intrinsic experience. I encouraged her to speak to a crisis counselor because having been through a similar experience, and to be honest, I was scared for her. Absolutely terrified. Her reasons for depression were related to stress, family and school factors, and she ultimately has decided that she will be going home to Montreal on Saturday after withdrawing from university for the time being.

Regardless of her decision, I want her to get the help she needs. No matter where she goes, the depression will follow if she doesn't acknowledge it. I know that as her friend, I have done what I can--given her the information, helped her speak to someone, and been there for her as support. But I still feel it isn't enough.

Anyways, the point I want to get across is, everyone needs to be aware of the signs of depression, not just for themselves, but for their friends, families, and peers. Here are some resources.

In Canada:
Suicide Info
Canadian Mental Health Association
Kids Help Phone
Kids Help Phone is open 24 hours a day, every day. If you are not sure where to turn call Kids Help Phone at 1-800-668-6868.

In the United States:
Suicide Prevention Helpline
1-800-273-TALK (8255), a free, 24-hour hotline available to anyone in suicidal crisis or emotional distress. Your call will be routed to the nearest crisis center to you.

Anyways, this is just something to think about. There is always another option. Suicide doesn't have to be the answer.
Current Mood: pensivepensive
Current Music: modest mouse - float on
07 January 2010 @ 04:33 pm
-- the only thing I crawled under was my covers for the last two weeks.

I've been woefully negligent of my poor journal, so I'm taking some time to fill you guys in on some of the things going on, whether you care or not.

First things first, there's this pretty hot guy sitting across from me right now at the table working on homework or reading or something, and I'm quite literally daydreaming over touching his arms, which are all muscley.

Okay, i sound like a creeper. But still. I'm just a tad lonely, currently, and still boyfriendless, which I worry about, because soon enough it's the path to spinsterhood and it all goes downhill from there. Okay, I'm kidding, but still. Hell-oo, gorgeous.

Second, I'm having my surgery in 13 days! I am so freaking excited. In a little less then two weeks, I'm going to be starting my life over again, however cliched that sounds. I'll keep you updated and things like that, since I will have some down time recovering. I am going to be healthy again. It's crazy and scary and amazing all at once, and I'm looking forward to it.

Third, I've been MIA over the break because I have no internet access at home, for those of you who don't follow me on Twitter or are friends with me on Facebook. Plus, I generally kind of suck at updating.

It's snowing right now and it's pretty--at least, until I have to go outside. I'm watching the cars and bus turn it into slush on the road, but the snow keeps falling right back down. Winter in Canada is a persistant fucker.

Anyways, update me on what you've been up to. I have to get going, i start classes tomorrow again and need to get home and get organized.


Aughh, ohmygod he just lifted his arms and he has delicious biceps.

I need a life.

And some kind of control over my hormones. *shakes head.*
Current Mood: gigglygiggly
Current Music: mika - we are golden